flying the coop

dear life:

i am taking a break from you.

your constant demands and needless complaints are wearing me thin and i need to get away.

the daily inquisitions about where i'm at and where am i going have left me doubtful that i will ever measure up to your standards.

i will keep it brief but i need this.

please don't think of this as breaking up.

think of it as a mini vacation.

because i will be back.

yes, unfortunately, i will return.

hopefully in better spirits and with a renewed sense of self.

but for now, i am flying the coop.

literally

i am on a plane of whose destination is unknown to me at this time.

but i don't mind.

sometimes not knowing your destination makes for a better journey.

because not all planned journeys turn out they way we hoped.

so i am just going with it and when this plane to fantasy island lands i hope to see only one thing.

a tiny man pointing up saying, "look boss de plane, de plane."

adios, arrivederci...

i am dragon hear me roar

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Chinese_zodiac

i am a fire dragon...

and i like it...

it sounds so...

fierce, fire-breathing, rawr...

so me.

i think.

and then i read my outlook for 2010.

hhmm...

dream much...

lol..

if it hasn't happened by now then i'm pretty sure that it'll never happen...

and i've accepted that fact and i'm really okay with it ...

really...

now if i can only figure out how to get rid of this stupid wedding dress i'll really be able to let go...

http://shine.yahoo.com/astrology/cancer/yearly-overview/20100101/

beat it

out with the old and in with the new...

yet another year has come to an end.. thanks goodness... 2009 was the year of "Murphy's"

you know "Murpy's Law" where anything that can go wrong will go wrong...

i don't think that the whole year was a waste just 3/4 of it...

let's reflect shall we.

January 2009 - Happy New Year... toot toot!

i was determined to stay up until the ball came down on Times Square in New York.

reality: fell asleep once again 10 minutes before midnight... darn darn..


February 2009 - Leap Year... SYKE !

stoked to have an extra day to get things done.

reality: next one won't happen until 2012 ?!?


March 2009 - Sweet 16...

celebrated the bad el's Sweet 16 and another miracle..

reality: just because you made dinner reservations oh a month in advance, don't expect the restaurant [ROMANO'S MACARONI GRILL located at the Ala Moana Center in Honolulu, Hawaii] to have your table ready even though you and your guests arrived 15minutes early and waited for another 20 minutes before finally stalking over to California Pizza Kitchen {bravo, by the way} where they were more than willing to accommodate a party of 20... AND to add insult to injury, Romano's actually had the audacity to call and say "where are you, your table is ready and we're waiting for you" which entitled me to walk back across the way to ridiculous that restaurant to tell the manager just where i thought he should shove his meatballs!


deep breath.


April 2009 - Wood Pig redux

april was a great month.. we got to celebrate wood pig and she had a grand old time at the creepy restaurant... we even got grandma to come over for a visit... it was great..

reality: it was a great month... lol


May 2009 - Mr. Murphy reared his ugly head

it was bad.

reality: it was really bad


June 2009 - look ma, i can fly

june was the month of endings... wood pig graduated and was moving on to the bigger and better things... and that could mean only one thing, parting from old friends... although it was a sad event it didn't last for long... they were all soon reunited for a final class trip that took them to the farthest point on the east coast... the bad el headed overseas... but i don't think even that was far enough for her... and grandma got in on the act and retired after many many dedicated years..

reality: it was quiet for a couple of weeks...


July was smooshed into August

reality: i really don't remember what happened other than i got a little older somewhere in between...


September: school started up again for not only the el's but also for me... i had finally decided that it was time to go back and finish what i started... the el's were excited to see old friends and even more so to make new friends... me, i just wanted to get through all of my classes alive..

reality: i was kidding myself about being able to swing five classes in a semester... lol


October: ah Halloween and pumpkins... snake-dragon and i volunteered at the halloween dance that the bad el's class was hosting... it was fun watching the boys dancing on one side of the gym and the girls on the other... and while snake-dragon was given the elite position of "security guard/door watcher/bouncer" i was stuck manning the glow-in-the-dark novelty table... lol... i never realized how cool dancing in the dark while wearing a glow-in-the-dark necklace could be...

reality: it was really loud... really loud... lol... i can't believe we used to subject ourselves to such ear splitting "music" just so that we could flirt with boys...


November: Thanksgiving... this was our first thanksgiving in the new house so we decided that instead of doing our usual trek to our friend's house for Thanksgiving we would spend it together... and thanks to the magic of television and the help of Zippy's Thanksgiving Dinners to-go we had a wonderful meal... we even went out the day after Thanksgiving to pick out our christmas tree... yay!

reality: we spent most of the time eating... but then again who doesn't, it's Thanksgiving...


December: good old Christmas... presents and joy and happiness... we also celebrated our first Christmas in the new house... the smell of the christmas tree and sugar cookies baking in the oven filled our house... it was great...

reality: i now know that salt is a very important ingredient in baking... thank you snake-dragon for this little tidbit... no wonder my dough was always so soft and sticky... lol...


so as we say good bye, sayonara, Aloha kakou to 2009 i have only good thoughts for great things to come in 2010...

a hui hou, till we meet again...

it's just a little break

don't you hate it when people say that...

"i just need a little break that's all "

a little break? as in 15 minutes or like forever... please clarify... ahh well..

in this tumultuous world we call life, things like that happen... we break up and make up ... but i'm pretty sure it doesn't happen every few days... love you, hate you, can't stand to be without you... stay with me but no, wait, that's too close... this seemingly easy gesture turns out to be overbearing and loathsome... our human nature drives us to be loving, caring beings... but sometimes, it's kinda like watching Animal Planet...



Voiceover: "look at that folks. the monkeys seem to be caring for one another. loving each other. outstanding! notice how the bigger monkey is removing what appear to be ticks from the smaller monkey. amazing! that's how it should be in life folks. everyone loving and... wait! oh my gosh! now the little monkey is bitting the bigger monkey on his phalanges! cue the commercial!"



oh well... i guess it's not always hearts and flowers and love... but one can hope that somewhere out there love is searching... for me, for you or maybe for that little monkey so it can spank it on the butt...



as you were...

pick up the pace

the days have turned into weeks and the weeks into months..  and now before you know it it's October...  omgosh i need to pick up the pace..  i've been la-di-da-ing my way through this darkened forest while the whole world has been surging forward without me..

i need to focus..  i need to get it together and get going..  the world isn't going to sit around and wait for me..  so i guess i need to jump off of this tree stump and hit the ground running..  

right after i stop to smell these gorgeous gardenias...

silence

the house is silent once again... the parents are safely on their way back to their "home" and i am enjoying this quite time...

i am here once again... safely esconed in my forest... where the darkness is soothing and the silence is deafening... and i like it...

these quite moments where all you can hear are little creature sounds and the occasional birds... but most of the time the creatures are still... respecting my need for all to be silent... for the only sound that i want to hear silence...

i wish for more moments like this... where i can feel the cool breeze dance over my body but it makes no sound... it caresses my skin and leaves me wanting more...

congratulations... you're leaving?

so of course everyone is up and about... and it's ooh, 4:45a... hello?!... some of us need our beauty sleep... lol... but i know... today is a big day... the little el's big day... woohoo...

so everyone is getting ready and bumping each other in the hall... "who's in this bathroom?" "fine i'll use the other one"... "have you seen my brush"... "how about my clips"... aii.. utter madness... in a house where the women still outnumber the men... lol

finally, finally everyone is packed into the car and we're off... first we drop off the "little el" and the grandparents... as we pull up to the school everyone is walking around in their "best outfits"... some of them have been planning for months for the day and others are just glad that it's finally here... smiles everywhere... we barely stop the car and the little el is instantly greeted with a group of her closest friends... and as girls do they're all talking at once... "oh my gosh, i love your dress "little el""... "did you see her shoes? where did you get them little el"... "you have to come and see what corey did to his hair"...

i give the "little el" a hug and tell her we have to go and get her flowers... we head to the flower shop to pick up the leis and hairpiece which i had ordered a month ago... we arrive at the flower shop and it's just our luck that someone is leaving and we easily find parking right in front of the shop... great, i think, this is going to be easy...

i walk into the flower shop where i'm a pretty regular customer and i tell the guy that i'm there to pick up my order... well of course the shop is bursting with women all wanting to pick up some leis before they head out to their graduation ceremonies... meanwhile i notice my guy is looking a little flustered... he's going back and forth to the different refrigeration case moving boxes around all of which i can see... i will myself not to panic...

he comes back to me and asks what my order is again and at that point i know i'm in trouble... i tell him that i ordered three different leis and a hairpiece... he heads back into the case to look again... he comes back and says the thing i dreaded the most "i can't seem to find your order" and heads back to the case again... aii... snake-dragon rolls down the car window and asks what's wrong... i look at him and i just can't help it... i start to cry... oh i'm a pitiful sight... lol... tears streaming down my cheeks as the guy is forced to pull leis that have probably been hanging there since yesterday... he apologizes again and says that he's not going to charge me the full price because he knows that he saw my order earlier that morning...

at which i say nothing... i can't... my throat is tight and my hands are shaking as i hand him my money... he apologizes again and all hell breaks loose... i'm crying as i walk to the car with my wilting carnation leis and brown-tipped pikake comb... i have failed the "little el"... but snake-dragon reassures me that the hairpiece will be fine and he would help the "little el" with getting it in her hair...

snake-dragon tells me that the ceremony was great... the "little el" loved being able to wear flowers in her hair... and now it was on to the celebratory dinner... woohoo...

so with just two hours before the "little el's" flight we decided to make it a quick dinner so that we could get to the airport in time... when dinner was over we headed out to the airport once again...

when we got there we found her group easily as they were a sea of red tee shirts... who's great idea was that... lol... she found her friends and they immediately picked up their conversation from where they left off just a few hours ago... their chatter and whispers made me giggle... and finally it was time for them to go... but not without a few last minutes instructions from grandma, which she politely yelled at the "litle el's" retreating back... "don't forget to drink lots of water "little el"... "and be sure to use the bathroom before you leave the hotel"...

aii... grandmothers...